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Wednesday Poems

(posted on 16 Apr 2025)

Image:  Among the Birches, acrylic on canvas, 11” x 14” (Sold)

Thirty years ago last fall, my younger sister Carolyn died. When I got the unexpected news of her death, I was all set to do a reading at the Vancouver Public Library.  I’d been excited about it; years earlier I’d been a clerk in that library and now I was returning as a featured poet. And I was looking forward to reading a sequence I’d written to honour Carolyn, who, despite living with severe cerebral palsy and suffering the many trials that came with it, was one of the most joyful people I have ever known. Then I learned that her funeral date conflicted with the reading. I was torn, because though I’d just visited Carolyn a few weeks earlier, I wanted to go back to New Brunswick to be with family and the many who would mourn her passing.  My decision was made easy when a group of good friends stepped in, agreeing to do the reading on my behalf so I could be where I needed to be. In addition to Carolyn’s poem, I’d chosen another dozen to read. Nine women divided the poems among them, and carried the night off with aplomb.  It was one of the finest, most caring gifts I’ve ever received.

So for this week’s post, to honour the many gifts of friends and of sisters, I’ve chosen a couple of poems from Between Sisters, the sequence for Carolyn in my book, Belonging (Sono Nis).

from Between Sisters

v.

You hold the chalk in your toes,
race wild lines across a small board
propped up at the end of your couch.

Intrigued, I try to imitate – 
place a crayon between my toes,
twist myself into position on the floor,
my foot poised at the page
aims and makes one faint orange stain.

I give up on this quickly,
return to the gift of agility in fingers.
 
You mutter something like frustration
so I come over, reach past
your foot scrounging in cushions
to retrieve your chalk for you,
to place it back between your toes

that will not grip what I give.
At first you chuckle
as over and over again the chalk just drops
into the soft folds of the blanket.

I persist until finally you tire of teasing me
kick at my hands, order
Nnnh!  g 'way!

the look on your face defiant
at my young surprise
that this you will do
for yourself.


vii.

Carrying you, one room to another
breakfast to bedtime
your so small body
stiffens horizontal in my arms.

The spasms just happen.
 
Two skinny teens,
one athlete, one atrophied,
we make our awkward way
across the floor

into a moment when the spasms lapse;
I ease you upward
nose to nose
your arms a sudden necklace
and we hug, ooo squeeze
tight, love
delight
upon my cheek,
the softness of your lips,
oh, sister, your gentle kiss!

With thanks to the women who did that reading for me:  Kate Braid, Cynthia Flood, Sharon Goldberg, Christine Hayvice, Claire Kjundzic, Joy Kogawa, Zoë Landale, Sheila Norgate, and Tana Runyan.

 

This will be my last Wednesday Poems post, at least for a while.  I’ve been doing these for a year now and it’s time to step back, decide where I want to go next.  It may be that I’ll continue with this idea, but less frequently. Or… I might come up with something new. Stay tuned!  And meanwhile, thanks to everyone who’s taken a look at these and given me feedback to them along the way.
 

(posted on 9 Apr 2025)

Image: Lost and Found, pastel on paper, 11” x 14” (Sold)

 

It might seem a bit odd to post, in April, a poem that ends with mention of winter (though I know it’s been snowing elsewhere this week).  But really, the rest of the poem is all about its title: Neighbours (from Belonging, Sono Nis Press).  And this is the time of year we begin to emerge from our winter hibernation to get the gardens cleaned up, start projects around the property – and see more of each other.  I’ve also been mindful lately of how important neighbours are.

Here on Pender, for the past year, elders have developed what we’re calling the G’Old Network.  Its purpose is to develop and sustain an environment that supports all who wish to grow old and die peacefully on Pender. Gatherings have explored a variety of concerns, ranging from seniors’ housing and public transportation to ready access to emergency care. And now we’re beginning to hold workshops to dive more deeply into issues related to these concerns.  One thing I’ve noticed people mention often, is that a big part of making our goal possible is having a network of supportive neighbours and friends who can lend one another a hand when needed.  Through all the years we’ve lived here, I’ve also noticed how very often – and quickly – people in our community step up to help as soon as they hear there is a need.

But I didn’t write this poem about Pender. I wrote it about the East Vancouver neighbourhood where my husband and I lived for 25 years before moving here in 2012.  After I read it at the book launch A Verse Map of Vancouver (2009) produced when George McWhirter was Vancouver’s poet laureate, people kept coming up to tell me my poem could as easily have been about their neighbourhood.  And here I’d thought it was just our little corner of the world.  I couldn’t have been happier to be wrong!

Too much of the world’s news lately can lead us to feel there is no end to the horrors on offer; but when we look up from all that, it’s encouraging to see just how much good there is in people. It fills me with hope that we can all build on that.


Neighbours


We discover each other slowly, through
summer afternoons renovating our houses,
hear histories between hammer strokes
about whose house used to be whose,
or the school behind the transit line
once a dairy farm,
our urban lots the hayfield
until it burned.

Newcomers and old-timers are introduced,
grow comfortable with people
who never would have cared to meet
if they hadn't happened on the same block.

We say the same
about most relatives, co-workers –
if not for blood or job ties
we'd have nothing in common,
let the comment pass as if it's a given,
as if there’s proof in how we lose touch
when we move on –
though they change us forever
and we them.

A citied-in street slows
the hurry-home from errands
with the syrup of blackberry scent and sweet peas
urging us back toward something
of the country town –
a craving for everyone to know everyone,
what we've been up to.

Fences eventually become supports to lean words on,
porches a reason to pause
as we become neighbours for a season,
stitching together the remnants of a village
before winter sets in.



Estranged, acrylic on canvas, 30” x 30”

Phil Ochs’ song “There But for Fortune” comes to mind often these days, with
addiction frequently in the news. Most of the time the reports focus on the unhoused,
the tent neighbourhoods in cities and smaller communities, and the tragic death toll
from drug overdoses. The addictions I’ve experienced weren’t drugs, they were
alcohol and cigarettes, both of which I was able, eventually, to kick.  So today,
two poems. The first has to do with the years I used alcohol as a stress reliever
(Rough Edges, from The Speed of the Wheel Is Up to the Potter; Quarry Press);
the second, with my awkwardness around street people in need
(Eye Contact, from Bewildered Rituals, Polestar Press). As the refrain in Phil Ochs’
song says: “There but for fortune, go you or I.”


Rough Edges

Coming home, I am a razor
sawing through the purple hue
and scent of a spring evening,
rough edges slashing silk
to permanent ruin.

Each sip of wine nestles me
gently into muffled cloud, yet I
want to hurl this drink at the wall.

In an instant of no particular decision,
the air is thick with crystal slivers ─
white paint, a sudden burgundy mural
of dribbling fingers.

I try to erase this witness
to my weakness.  Nothing works.
I invite no-one over,
afraid of questions ─
what caused those faded marks,
now pink rivers spilling out
from posters too small
to conceal articulate stains …

(What could I say,
lifting my favourite red
to lips in idle conversation.)

So I spend nights alone
toasting failures,
eyeing the clean canvas
of another wall.

 


Eye Contact


Days repeat themselves in a grey
weight of clouds, pressed against
her shoulders like a drenched coat.
On this street, she reflects
an absence of trees ─ seems only
a remote flower, a petal
sealed within a bud that spring
keeps missing.

I've been striding past her
every day now, for weeks.
Each time, my body taut
as a thread about to break,
as if it will
if I look straight at her,
smile and nod when she holds
out her hand for a quarter.

I pass into the store,
pretend I do not hear
her winced plea,
knowing I'll save the change
for her anyway ─ will come out
head clamped to avoid her glance,
drop the silver where I expect
her palm to be.

But yesterday, she'd
curled her fingers to her coat
against the cold, and the sound
of money tickling concrete
broke my practiced trance.

For an instant, our eyes met awkwardly.
Then mine sidled away like thieves
and her gaze spilled to the pavement
to capture metal seeds.

 

Image:  Great Blue, acrylic on canvas, 10" x 20” (Sold)
 

There are many reasons why I feel lucky to have grown up in Sackville, New Brunswick.
This small town is home to Mount Allison University, and I benefited from many visits to the
Owens Art Gallery, the swimming pool, the annual winter carnival and more; we had a
skating rink, a movie theatre, lots of school sports and activities … But most of all, we had
the Tantramar marshes, which were my playground.  And we had a poet who wrote about
this place I so loved.  We learned about Sir Charles G.D. Roberts and his poetry in school –
which to me meant that the possibility of becoming a poet seemed a pretty ordinary thing. 
Years later, when I began to publish my poems and meet other poets, I heard over and over
again that it was different for them;  in school, they never learned about any Canadian poets,
never mind one who wrote about where they lived. 

So, to honour my luck and my roots, and in keeping with it now officially being spring, here’s
Revisiting Chance and Change, from Suddenly, So Much (Exile). 




Revisiting Chance and Change

Yet will I stay my steps and not go down to the marshland, -
Muse and recall far off, rather remember than see, -
Lest on too close sight I miss the darling illusion,
Spy at their task even here the hands of chance and change.

                                    — Sir Charles G.D. Roberts ("Tantramar Revisited" 1886)


 

Odd, how the hands that held you back are the ones
that draw me near, urging me into a landscape you

would think ruined, bleached pylons rising
in reeds by the dyke where I watch for herons — blue

beacons guarding the sullen decay of wharves, forsaken
when the tides altered course.  An island was born,

left you hesitating on the hill, yet bequeathed to me
this rhythm of the Tantramar.

We greet changes to childhood haunts
awkwardly, want home to stand still while we

wander off making strangers
of ourselves, hoping for the familiar

when we return — marsh hawks still tipping
their wings to the few grey barns that remain,

beams sagging into an old scent of cedar and hay.
It’s more than a hundred years since you kept

your distance but the river
keeps rushing in with the wind nipping at cattails, 

the mud flats are as red as ever — and there
is the place I imagined myself

tucked inside a redwing’s solitary call.  The ground
is under water now, restored to wetlands —

                                                                         Listen
the bobolink is back


 

One more note; in addition to redwings heralding spring
(see last week’s Wednesday poem), my mother always said
a sure sign of spring for her was the return of the bobolink …

(posted on 19 Mar 2025)



Image: Cycle, acrylic on canvas 16” x 20”

The redwing blackbirds have been filling the air with their
unique song lately, heralding the approach of spring.  This
always reminds me of when, living near Trout Lake
in Vancouver, I managed to haul myself out of bed by 5:30 a.m.
to ride my bike around the park for awhile. It was, for a time,
my way of getting ready for another day at my desk; a way
of making sure I got a chance to enjoy the dawn and get some
much needed exercise while I was at it.  So for today’s Wednesday
Poem, here’s Cycle, from Bewildered Rituals (Polestar).

CYCLE


For now, the sun has crashed
the gates of last night's rain.
We are the lovers of dawn,
thrive on early rising to emerge
from drowsy houses. Leave the sleepers
to their dreams, we spin
through morning mist and willow green
and I, for one, haunt this park
with longing.

This small hour a fantasy
to follow my breath, wherever;
peddle my desires to herons in the trees.
Widgeons grazing in the grass
take flight at each arrival,
whistle from the sun-striped lake
until we pass.

We, who come to sip of peace, unwitting
cause the birds' routine
of fearful feeding.
But I'll think no more of contradictions,
fling my mind to flight with sea gulls,
gather canvasses of clouds.
Off-key as the crows, I compose
symphonies of freedom.

Even as I leave,
duty driven to my day,
the ghost of myself remains
there, just past that clump of reeds
bursting with the crescendo
of redwings.

(Image: photograph, hellebore)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g9plfz9fG38

This past week has been Victoria’s annual flower count – that time of year when
those of us lucky enough to live on the south coast of BC boast about our early spring. 
So many blossoms, though, how can we resist – snowdrops, hellebores, daffodils,
camelias, cherry blossoms and more brighten our days.  Still, so many other parts of the
country remain snowbound, or are waiting for the piles of ploughed snow to melt. 
So this week, I’ve chosen a kind of cross-country piece for my Wednesday Poem – 
Cedar Cottage Suite, the title poem from my 2010 chapbook (Leaf Press). This haiku
sequence starts with flowers, but … ends with snow. Oh – and this time, in addition to a
photograph or painting to accompany my weekly post, I’ve included a link to my
YouTube video, if you want to hear me read a few of the haiku.


Cedar Cottage Suite

1.

Shaking out folds
from sheets dried on the line –
petals, too!

          *

          Wind last night;
          I wake to my neighbour sweeping
          pink debris

2.

Some kind of plastic
trash in the north lagoon
reflecting sunlight        

          *

          Two mallards paddle
          in and around thick rushes –
          where is their nest?     

3.

Seed husks cling
to new leaves, leggy
stems wobble     

          *

          Under lush
          magnolias, a sleeping bag
          rolls over

4.

Beside the path
heron walks away from me
on tiptoe    

          *

          What a dive!
          An osprey catches dinner  –
          who weeps for the fish?       

5.

High in the cypress
a flicker bursts out laughing
while I walk to work     

          *

          That dragonfly
          keeps changing lanes: dangerous
          driver

6.

Voting day  –
old crow dives, leaps gently
off my head        

          *

          Sudden storm:  even  
          crows wake up shrugging flakes   
          off their shoulders       

7.

First snow:  someone placed
the orange ladder against
that tree again             

          *

          Late afternoon  –
          shadows slide off benches
          abandoned to snow    

(Cedar Cottage is the name of the east end Vancouver neighbourhood that includes
Trout Lake in John Hendry park.  We lived there for 25 years before moving to Pender).

(posted on 5 Mar 2025)

Image:  Fiddler in a Blue Fedora, acrylic on canvas, 24” x18”

Just one of the many things I love about living on S,DÁYES (Pender Island) is the many marvellous concerts we get to enjoy.  Ptarmigan Arts, Stoney Pocket, the Concert Society and others support performances by both local and off-island musicians. Last Sunday, Island Chamber Winds, conducted by the island’s own Ben Litzcke, treated the audience to music from the 1800s to today, much of it unique and rarely performed.  There were two French horns, two oboes, two bassoons and two clarinets, and oh, those instruments sounded fabulous together! Next week we get to enjoy Tom Allen narrate a chamber musical, J.S. Bach’s Long Walk in the Snow, telling the little known story about the young Bach’s “400 km odyssey”.

I’ve often wished I were a musician. And though I did learn to play the piano and guitar at a very basic level, the art of it never came naturally to me and, despite my best intentions starting out, eventually I gave up on both.  So today, my Wednesday poem for this week is Strum the Guitar, from T’ai Chi Variations in Suddenly, So Much (Exile).

Strum the Guitar

All your life you've tried
to synchronize fingers and string,

a fascination that began
tangled in laces and cats' cradles,

the imagined music in a mute guitar
on a cottage wall —

begging your uncle to play,
though an inkling that he'd forgotten

how, crept between his evasions
like betrayal.  Years later

you spent hours with the gift
your mother could not afford,

feeling your way into the rhythms
of protest and love.  Now you reach

a moment in this sequence
where you can break an opponent's arm

or waltz with what your own two hands
have abandoned, hold

the hope of harmony
in your arms again.

(posted on 26 Feb 2025)



Image: Twist and Shout, oil and cold wax on panel, 20” x 20”
            (design based on ice patterns on a pond)


The Four Nations Hockey Tournament ended last Friday with one of the best games ever.
Not just because Canada won, not just because we’re all feeling very Canada-proud these days,
making the win that much sweeter, but because it was good hockey.  Really good hockey.
The kind I love to watch – great skills on display, fast end to end skating, crisp clean passes,
few penalties, amazing goal tending …  How I wish the NHL would get back to that kind of play –
I’d watch again, if they did.  Anyway, a poem that features skating seems in order for this week,
so here is Surfaces, from Bewildered Rituals (Polestar).


Surfaces

The hollow scrape of blades
moves skaters through crisp air,
this cold, a particular winter
of toques and scarves and gloves
as superfluous as buttons.
Jackets flap in the wind
of our movements.

So many trajectories,
a community singing on ice
the lake almost large enough, people make space ─
pucks and sticks
pause for these wobbly legs to pass
and no one points to laugh.
The only borders here
are where lifeguards hack at the ice,
check for thickness and rope off
spots too thin for safety.

We slide or glide or stumble
away from treacherous areas
into indiscriminate welcomes
to all who venture onto the lake,
this surface beneath our feet
the only skin of concern.

In the centre of a city,
echoes of unhurried sound
take me back to the Tantramar ─
redwings in the rushes,
their harmonica call a microcosm
of what I miss.

What is it about place that seeps
into your soul
mindless of miles, however far you move ─
plays out the string and holds you,
tempts a false nostalgia.

I catch myself believing
this momentary release from rancour
holds the possibility of a city
reclining into country life, as if back home
there was never anything like a frozen pond
abandoned to power, boys
claiming ownership of the top, slap shots
tripping girls' attempts at circles ...

At some point every conversation
comments on the relief
of outdoor skating:  no one dictating
now to the right, the left,
backward only, just couples,
muzac piping out the pace.

Our music is disparate voices
mingled with the language of blackbirds
ducks and crows, our patterns as random
and predictable as their flight.
Wings slant and turn snug in the sky,
feet sculpt curves and crossroads into ice.

Such a freeze is rare here ─ the need
to get to the middle, irresistible
just to see what it's like to look
at the path from the lake for a change.

Searching for perspective, almost everyone
explores the iced-in cat tails and reeds
where the heron hunts when it's water
where we turn from relics of summer
locked in the frozen surface:
styrofoam, cellophane, plastic trash,
lost tennis balls and toys.

We look without seeing
how fragile our smiles
when it's youths who feel free
to nod to the aged,
whites to the black or the brown,
then skate or stroll away
from subtle assumptions behind
who welcomes whom

We sing in the same
clutches and gaggles as ever,
leaving implications, like our litter
for someone else to face.


Written sometime around 1990 when Trout Lake in East Vancouver
froze enough for us to lace up our skates and get out on the ice for a few days.

(posted on 19 Feb 2025)



 

Image:  Embraced,
acrylic on wood panel, 8” x 8”


On Valentine’s Day, CBC broadcast a wonderful love story from
New Brunswick.  My high school English teacher’s widow, at age
90 has found love again – and it all came about through a fabulous
seniors support program set up some time ago in the rural communities
that encompass her home at Murray Corner by the Northumberland Strait. 
Here’s the
story:  well worth checking out!  I decided to honour them with
one of my love poems, this one, Making Love, from Belonging (Sono Nis).


Making Love

Making love with you I feel
my body wrap around the earth ─
a warm cocoon, content long after
making love with you.  I feel
at home with everyone all day,
cannot imagine indifference after
making love.  With you, I feel
my body wrap around the earth.



This one is another triolet – a wee eight-line poem with two refrains, each appearing three times. 
I often shake things up quite a bit in form poems, but here I kept the refrains intact, using changes
in punctuation to shift emphasis.  Enjoy!  (For more about this form, and more examples check it out
in
In Fine Form: A Contemporary Look at Canadian Form Poetry and my Wednesday Poem #31.)

(posted on 12 Feb 2025)


Image:  Winter, acrylic on canvas, 24” x 24” (sold).
 

Well that second snowfall from last week stuck around for a while, and even now some shady trails and driveways are a bit icy.  The other day, when I ventured out to bring in some wood, I heard a high-pitched gushing sound and worried that the neighbour’s pipes might have frozen and sprung a leak. But as I investigated, it turned out their pipes were fine (whew!); what I heard was an extended orchestral suite, compliments of the many juncos that hang out here.  Which reminded me of a snowy spell back when we lived in Vancouver, when variious birds flocked to feast on the seeds we’d scattered for them.  So today’s Wednesday Poem is Carnival Yard, from Cedar Cottage Suite (Leaf Press).  

Carnival Yard


Thrushes back! Juncos!
Yard’s a-hoppin’ – towhees, too…
Winter carnival!


          Whee! to winter!  Yard-
          hopping, too!  Carnival’s back:
          Thrushes.  A junco.


Hoppin’ juncos, yard’s
a towhee carnival!  Two
thrushes.  Winter’s back.


          Winter yard:  Juncos,
          thrushes, towhees hopping back
          to a carnival.


Back yard towhees hush;
juncos stop hopping. Winter
carnival at rest.



This sequence is another one inspired by the form Brian Bartlett created, which combines haiku and anagram. For the anagram, I varied some words, but limited myself to using the same letters in each haiku (except for when I replaced the ‘g’ in hopping with an apostrophe).

 

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